cats and the internet

people need to stop creating blogs and/or twitter accounts for their pets. it is not cute. it is stupid and makes the rest of the universe want to vom. same goes for dressing your pets in doll clothes. IMMATURE. obviously you care not for your pet's sanity. also, it means that you are well on your way to being a crazy cat lady. stop talking about your cat. nobody cares what you think he's thinking. what he is in actuality always thinking (or at least what i would be thinking, if i were unlucky enough to be your cat) is something along the lines of DEAR SWEET GOD HAVE THIS GIRL COMMITTED BEFORE SHE DRIVES ME INSANE. and then i would swat you in the face. with my claws.

bathroom awkwardness

i will never understand why people feel the need to start conversations in the bathroom. i guess it's something to take your mind off the fact that you REALLY NEED TO PEE and OH GOD THERE IS ONLY ONE STALL AND FOUR PEOPLE AHEAD OF ME but seriously it can be so awkward. there are two kinds of awkward bathroom conversations.
1) people you once met, but as luck would have it, you do not speak to and thus cannot remember their names.
actually, this one happens outside of bathrooms a lot too. it's just that in a bathroom you cannot make some excuse and get away politely. and of course they remember things about you that you told them, but you have no clue who they are so you're left faking your way through and hoping that they don't realize that they look exactly like four other generic tiny brown chicks that you met last week and you don't know which one they are.
2) people you don't know at all and have never spoken to, but who also know things about you.
this girl auditioned for my a cappella group this winter and we didn't take her, mostly because we weren't looking for girls at the time. she's since become a really big fan and comes to all our concerts. guess who i ran into in the bathroom today. super awks.
so basically if you run into people you know peripherally in the bathroom, do them a favor and don't start a conversation. most likely they just need to pee.

fall term

yay!
made up my schedule for next fall: taking 5 pset classes and possibly choir, and somehow the year doesn't look like it'll suck!
this is exciting!
also one of my pset classes is harmony and counterpoint =) and i should really take choir to get out of sight-singing lab. depends on next term's repertoire...

confusion

it is so hard to tell people you care about that they've hurt you. especially when their knowing it would make life better for both of you. do not understand.

now with lower expectations

so done expecting the world not to let me down. semiformal and my boyfriend's orchestra concert are the same night, same time. can't go to semi because the boyfriend is playing & i have no one else to go with in any case. and like any good girlfriend i am going to the concert (would also not miss shostakovich 12 for anything) and now i find out that the friend i intended to go to the concert will not be there after all. why? he's going to semiformal. so as of now i am lowering my expectations. people damn well better be awesome on my birthday, because that is the only date i am allowed to have any standards for at all.

a new light

sitting in my window watching the sunset's light turn soft off the glass and steel apartment building across the field, wondering why it is that the light in which you see things can make them so beautiful all of a sudden when they've been the same old thing for months on end...

awkwardness and hope

hope
dangles on a string
like slow-spinning redemption
winding in, and winding out
the shine of it has caught my eye
~vindicated; dashboard confessional

just out of reach and teasing me is the end of term with a lot of stuff to do between now and then.
and mixing in the personal makes things so much more complex. i have never felt so awkward here as the past two days have made me feel and it is not pleasant.