a minor crisis and some embarassment

an actual conversation i had tonight (the pink text is mine):

wait is this guy white?

yes

ah

why?

that explains everything 

lol

so does that make it better or worse?

idk

all i know is you give white guys an automatic +1000000 or something

lol

me personally?

yeah

man

that makes me feel kinda dumb

i meamn

i give white girls a + but its not nearly as blatant

haha

meh

i dont know if that makes it worse

i think thats just a meh

possibly

it may explain why you said yes

instead of just lulzing him

well, damn. i feel shallow now. should i? i mean, i like white guys. i don't consciously give them points for being white, i just find them more consistently attractive.

and is it awful that i said yes to the formal even though i really have no interest whatsoever in this guy? i'm not trying to lead him on at all, but now i feel like i may be (probably am?).

mostly i just feel shallow though.

dearest readers, i am in the throes of a crisis, however minor it may be. your thoughts would be much appreciated, if only to let me know whether or not i am a lunatic for worrying.