absurdity?

is it absolutely absurd that i am confused by the world and its perfection?

i look at where i was a year ago and then i compare it with where i am now and the contrast is SHOCKING. absolutely SHOCKING.

everything's come a long long way; and the closest i can get to describing it is just this inimitable feeling of being ever so alive, so strong in myself, so loved by such a ridiculous amount of people. and i don't know where it's coming from but i never ever want it to end ever...